When that someone praised you looking beautiful on that special particular event, all you can do is smile and say thanks.

That had happened to me once.

That someone is my crush.

But not anymore.

Because I know his heart belongs to other girl.

The other girl who is flawless, has more captivating smile than me.

More attractive than me.

Well.

For me,

He is now just a friend.

But I still love being with him.

Taking silly pictures with him.

Talk ridiculous things with him.

Just having him with me even make me happy.

I will be happy whenever I am in the same team as him.

The same place where we can do activities together.

I just love everything about him.

There was once when we walked together from preparation class.

Then, a friend walked in opposite way said

'Aaa.. do you guys have something, that something?"

Then he said, casually,

"We are couple,arent we Iqa?"

That time,

I was shocked to hear that.

but I know he is just joking.

So,I simply happily replied to the friend,

"Yeah. We are :)."

He also once mentioned that we were in a scandal before.

He always know how to make me flutter.

Though he didnt notice at all.

Thanks to my skin as it doesnt get red at all when I'm blushed.

I should've be called 'Unblushable Iqa'.

Then,

It was that day.

When he uttered this sentence.

"Iqa, kau nampak comel hari ni."

It was quite unbelievable since 

He never said something nice about my appearance.

I'm the only who compliment myself.

Surely,it was just for 'koya' thing that I shared with him.

I admit that my heart skipped a beat that moment.

But though,

I never think that as a sign of him replying my past feelings for him.

Because

On that day,

Surely I wore something different as it is a special event.

That means,

He praised me looking comel when he saw me in that state.

He praised the outer me.

He loved to look at the outside.

Then I thought,

He is not the one I need.

I need someone that love me,

The inside me.

That's the most important.

Because the outside can change.

But the inside hardly can change.

 I hope one day

I will find The One.

The One who can accept me in whatever state.

Who will accept the me that talk a lot, have weird habits.

Who will love me even if I grew the third eye.

Who will always be there to listen to me, to protect me.

Who will not mind if I drooled a pail when I sleep.

But.

The someone.

We made a promise that we will be friends forever.

Until the day that separates our soul from our bodies.

Dear you,

If you're reading this,

Thanks for that compliment.

It really cheered my day.

Thanks for being the you whenever beside me and

Thanks for making me comfortable being the real me beside you.

You taught me a lot.

If one day,

I leave this world first,

Dont forget me.

Dont ever forget our memories.

Our silliness together.

I would never forget the feeling I had for you.

The feeling being your friend.

The feeling that you always give me.

The gaze I gave you.

Words that seemed planted into my deepest part of brain.

How the just a few words escaped from your mouth made me smile.

How you made me jealous.

How you love to 'koya' how handsome you are.

Everything I had when I was with you.

Once again,

Thank you.

I love you friend.

Hai.

My life's getting tougher.

With so many things landing onto my head, my inner me.

Sekarang.

Aku dah pegang kawasan asrama.

Like a boss la kan.

Tapi.

Ya Allah..

Tuhan je la tahu.

Betapa susahnya nak handle budak-budak pramatang ni.

Dengan perangai sorang-sorang tu..

Ada yang baik tu, baik la.

Kalau yang degil tu, rendam dalam asid pon belum tentu cair.

Aku tak tau la apa nak jadi dengan dieorang tu.

Dah la tahun ni nak exam,

Tak sedar diri lagi.

Aku dah berlembut dengan dieorang.

Tapi

Nak kepala.

Aku garang kan,

Kata aku singa la bagai.

Kalau aku jadik malaikat,

Korang bukan nak dengar pon.

Kalau aku jadik singa,

Korang buat muka,

Kata macam-macam belakang aku.

Cakap aku ni nyekik la.

Tolong la Adik-adik.

Apa yang susah sangat nak ikut peraturan?

Orang lain boleh je.

Kenapa tak korang?

Nak kata ***** kan,

Semua same je kelayakan masuk.

Kalau aku bangkit pasal mak bapak kan,

Korang melenting,

Jadi,

TOLONG LA.

AKU MERAYU dengan korang.

BEHAVE la.

Jaga la siket name korang tu,

Name batch, 

Yang penting

Name MAK BAPAK korang tu.

Aku marah, aku tegur

Bukan sebab aku benci korang.

Aku marah bersebab.

Aku marah pada orang yang bersalah.

Aku pun tak nak marah korang sebenarnya.

Tapi.

Korang tu.

Aku harap one of you guys ada yang terasa bila bace statement ni.

Sekiranya bukan aku yang pegang jawatan ni tahun depan,

Tolong la.

Demi dia.

Sebab dia mesti lebih baik daripada aku.

Sebab hanya aku sorang je yang macam singa dalam batch aku.

Dan

Most Crucial 

For YOUR OWN SELVES.

Hai.

Lama dah tak berkarya.

Dah lebih kurang 4 bulan rasenya.

Pada mulanya,

Terfikir nak ignore terus je blog ni.

Tapi.

Sehinggalah baru-baru ni

Eifa cakap

"Await dah lama tak update hangpa punye belog?"

Aku terus terfikir.

Why not just continue writing?

As this is the one thing that I can do to express my feelings.

So.

This is it.

Afiqah.

Le me.

Sitting here.

Writing again.

Even I'm just the only one who read these things back.

Thanks to Eifa.

I got back my spirit to write.

Hai.

:D

Sekarang musim mengundi.

Aku nak berpolitik siket, boleh?

Khamis lepas,

Aku dan family pergi la jalanjalan Bandar KT.

Along the journey,

Pergi dan balik

Kiri kanan dipenuhi bendera.

Tak kira la,

HIJAU ke biru ke 

Cangkul pon ade.

The most INTERESTING is 

Flashmob!

Mereka " Bunyikan hon tanda setuju "

My Dad " pooooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn"

Hon gilleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee panjang..

Sampai si Bapak Polisi pon tengok aje kete kiteorang.

Memang best hari dan saat tu.

Then, we went home.

I was like..

" Rase macam semangat pelik je. "

Takpe!

Demi Islam, demi masa depan generasi kami.

Aku sanggup ketepikan homework.

Ehhh.. ehhhh..ehhh..

Salah konsep tu.

Kempen, berkempen jugak.

Kewajipan kepada diri, jangan lupa.

Politik, politik jugak.

Homework jangan tak siap pulak.

Jadik,

Ape bende pon kite buat

Kene semangat.

Bukan politik je.

Bukan musim mengundi je.

Study pon same.

Afiqah,

Semangat lagi nak study tu.

Ok? 

:)

Hai.

Ngeee...

Happy Holiday.

Budak UiTM kate ' Cuti la sangat. Homework gile banyok.'

Budak UiTM, termasuklah aku.

Orghhh...

Teens life is torturing us.

Maksud aku,

Homeworks yang gile banyak.

Hormon yang tak stabil.

Kemunculan jerawat bertaburan atas muka.

Perasaan yang tak mampu diolah.

Tanggungjawab terhadap sekolah.

Keinginan yang tak berani aku luahkan.

For short,

Macam macam ma!

Ohh.. life.

Kadang kadang 

Aku benci hidup aku.

Aku selalu rasa macam

'Where are you when I need you, friends?'

Padahal aku yang selfish,

Tak nak cerita hal aku kat dieorang.

Aku diberi satu kejutan bile baca artikel mengatakan,

'Ade sekurangnya 7 orang yang sayang kite daripada aspek yang pelbagai macam'

Then,

I was thinking.

Sape yang sayang aku?

Terbang melayang jawapan dalam minda aku.

Sang Pencipta, Rasullulah, Umi, Abah, Angah, Alang, Along, my late kittens.

Orang sebelah 'woi! Kucing tu kucing. Bukan orang'

Aku' biar la. Aku sayang kucing aku macam adik aku, tau'.

Hmmm....

Sebenarnya, ramai je orang sayang kite.

Kawan sekelas, satu batch, cikgu, Cg. Rafi...?

Jadik, 

Tak perlu la nak persoalkan 

Kenapa aku tak dicintai?

Kenapa tak ade orang nak kat aku?

Sedarlah teman,

Bukan tak ade.

Cume kau tak nampak.

Cume kau tak rase.

Kau kene faham.

Kau mesti ade crush, kan?

So how's feeling of admiring someone in shadow?

Bukan kau je.

Aku pun.

Die pun.

Sape sape pun pernah.

Believe me.

You are more than what you thought you are.

Aku Punye ...

Hai.

Lagi?

Biar la. 

Blog ni AKU PUNYE.

Ok!

Itu die.

Topik kali ni.

What I meant earlier was

AKU PUNYE BEST FRIEND.

Aku suke panggil die Si Apek Yong.

Sebab die macam apek Cine.

Hihi..

Entah kenape,

Aku rase sangat bersyukur dapat kenal die.

Umm..umm..umm..

Biar la identiti si Apek Yong ni dirahsiakan.

Apek Yong sangat pelik.

Die mandi 5 kali sehari.

Wow...!

Yang paling aku suke pasal die

Die sangat care tentang aku.

Die selalu tegur aku.

'Woi. Nampak lengan tu'

Antara tanda Apek sayang aku.

Die cakap ' aku akan jage orang yang aku sayang'

Die sentiase ingatkan aku jage aurat.

Yang paling aku benci pasal Apek Yong

Bile die gune ayat ni

' Mu buat gini, kekgi ****** marah kekgi'

Aaaaaa..!

Aku sangat depressed when he use that name to threat me.

Dan.

Apek Yong sangat annoying.

'Aku nok tengok gambo tu... please..'

Then, ' :)) ppuuiihhhh.. ok ok aku tak gelakkan kau'.

Dah terang lagi bersuluh kau gelakkan aku.!

Sebenci aku kat die,

Aku still sayang die

Sebab die BESTFRIEND aku.

Hai.

:D

Isu hari ni :

I'm changing.

Orang sebelah ' Haa?! Changing? Kau ni ular ke? '

Aku ' Yes. Aku ular.'

Die ' biar betul... '

Aku '  Ape la ******* sangat kau ni. Rezakkk aku'

Hehehe.. 

Sedikit sedutan drama Aku dan Orang Sebelah.

Bakal ditayangkan bulan 13 2013.

Tak la.

Back to our issue.

Aku dalam fasa perubahan.

Aku berubah ke arah kebaikan for sure.

Aku yang poyo sedar 

Aku pergi umrah,

Tapi aku tengok orang sekeliling aku yang tak pernah jejak Mekah

Berubah.

Sedangkan aku,

Still in the same state.

Alhamdulillah.

Lepas satu fakta tentang aku dan die didedahkan

Aku sedar.

Aku cuba.

Didorong pulak oleh Si Apek Yong,

Semangat aku berkibar kibar.

Orang sebelah 'hotak kau!'

'Berkobar kobar la!'

Aku 'ala saje je tu. (Ayat cover)'

Tak salah kan 

Kalau aku berubah sebab seorang Adam?

Paling tak pun,

Aku jadik lebih baik untuk aku jugak kan?

Hai.

Hari ni.

Dengan bangganya, 

Saya mengisytiharkan bahawa ...

Saya dah 15 tahun 6 bulan 14 hari.

Dah tua kan aku ni.
Dah matang?
Ye ke?

Kematangan aku boleh diukur dengan
Jerawat
Kebolehan aku membezakan hak dan batil
Perasaan.

Hmm..
Perasaan.
Semua manusia ade perasaan.
Cinta.
How to describe cinta?

Aku dalam dilema.
Pergolakan perasaan yang aku sendiri tak reti nak rungkai.

Tapi.
Saat aku perlukan
Kau tiba.
Menghulurkan nasihat.

Aku rase lega sangat lepas share cite dengan kau.
Kisah aku selamat dengan kau.
Kisah kau selamat dengan aku.

Gamsahamnida Mr.BestFriend.
Even kite baru kenal tahun ni.

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Lame dah tak terusik diari kesayangan ni.

Kali ni 

Aku balik lame la siket.

4 hari kot.

Sekarang musim hujan.

Gelombang ke berape entah.

Besut, Setiu n Klate banjir doh.

Haishh.. ni risau ni.

Tempat orang yang aku sayang dilanda banjir.

Orang yang aku sayang?

Sape? 

Kawan, "aaa.. pandai kau sekarang ea".

Aku, "hotak kau"

Tak la.

Bukan pakwe.

Tk declare pon.

Crush maybe.

For sure, kawan.

Aku risau la time banjir macam ni.

Korang tau tau je la kan.

Budakbudak suke main air.

Even dah 16.

Naik sawan bile tengok air.

Naik main, main jugak.

Keselamatan kene jage.

Sir Aimin kate, "1. Safety 2. Safety 3. Safety"

Kepada sesiape yang dah terhantuk dengan ayat aku ni,

Stop yourselves from terjun dan dibawa lari oleh air.

Kalau korang tak sayang nyawa,

Ingat aku.

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